Every Mile Counts

too many things have been happening recently. i am really frustrated and don't seem to know i should lead my future life. my visa for continuing to stay in Australia has been refused. when i first saw the email, it seems like someone has just slapped me hard on my face. suddenly i felt so weak and my whole body just turn cold. i know this is a bit exaggerating because my family told me that i still can go home if things turn worst. there will always be a home waiting for me.

at that moment, i wanted everything turned back time by being normal and treat that i never read the email. i am scared that i will lose my job as it was just the beginning of gaining the trust from colleagues. another thing is i can't seem to take a long distance relationship with KW. everything became so blur and i can't seem to predict what will happen in my life anymore.

i will have to continue studying if i want to continue staying here. but no matter what i still need to get myself out of the country for a while until my study visa is being processed and allow me to come into the country again. so many trouble just because i did not meet my 2 years requirement to study in Australia. how am i suppose to know that 2 years mean 16 subjects? damn it... (sorry for my language, really feel angry when i mention this)

i shall update again when i have some more news and information. i still feel really sad!!!