Every Mile Counts

for the pass few days I've been thinking of my grandma. she's now 88 years old. i don't know what makes me think of her but all i can say is i really miss her. last Sunday when mum told me she hasn't been feeling well i just felt down. I know she sometime feels tired and uncomfortable and other days she might be well and healthy.

she loves gardening. i remembered when she was a bit younger, she used to pluck and cut the flowers but now we won't allow her to do anything that's too heavy or things that she focus on too long. so nowadays, she just stays at home just by sleeping, eating and waiting for my parents or relatives to visit her.

when my siblings and i were young, she will always come and live with us and cook some of her specialty for us. she will also give us some pocket money every month for us to keep it in our little piggy bank. my grandma will always shower us with love, gifts and share everything she's got with us. even when I'm naughty and is being scolded by my mum, she is always there to protect me and trying to advise mum not to scold me.

i loved her stories she tells even though some of it is always repeated but that's her real life story that made me really admire her. she's always brave to face the problems but at the same time she's also actually scared.

when me or my sis goes back home, she will always try her best to allocate a time to stay over at our place for a few days. even its just for a day, she will also stay over as she knows that there will be people at home talking to her or us walking up and down from the house. but now i only go home once a year and my sis few times a year.

i can almost feel her loneliness when she's at home all by herself especially when my uncle and aunt goes travelling. part of me wants to fly back to take care and chat with her. but she always encouraged me to stay here and earn and get the experience here. even when she asked me when will i be going back and i told her I'll be going back during CNY, she will always say its alright if you have to work. she's really some sort of a modern grandma who understand what is more important to me.

my grandma is my best friend and also the best grandma that i would ever want. God really blessed with such loving parents, grandma and siblings that i won't even ask for more which makes me really really appreciate them. Take care my dearest grandma & I'll definitely be back to see you this coming CNY!

I love you ah ma!

CNY 2008