Every Mile Counts

things haven't been going on that well for me. im now caught in between a gal and a guy. both of them are my good friends but things haven't been going on that well for both of them. im always here to hear out the problems from the gal and tried to help the guy too. but the guy seems to be too busy to care about the relationship now as he has to hand in assignment on monday. the gal won't pick up his phone. i really don't know who to help because both of them are my friends. if i help the gal then i'll be saying bad things about the guy which i won't want to do so as i won't want to spoilt our friendship. sigh... when the gal told me her problems i can just only listen and choose my words carefully on what i am saying in order not to offend and hurt her. this is their problem so i think that i can just stay neutral and stay out of it.

last night something happened again. i actually told the gal that i might go out with her today but yesterday my other friends had asked me out so i decided not to go out today as im having exam on thursday. so i told the gal that i won't be going out with her and she got angry with me. she even said something which is kind of hurt. i said to her next week maybe we go out to watch movie then she said 'no need, u guys go by urself. i can go out with my friends.' this kind of hurt right? i know part of it is my wrong as i told her that i might go out with her but i never gave her a confirmation. is this the answer that she can give?

i sort of foresee that my friendship with her might not be as good as last time anymore. some part of me make me feel unsecure and not having as much trust as before anymore. i know that her style is sensitive but i never get mad with her just like that. she will and always will be my friend but now it's up to her on how she sees things. i can't change her attitude towards me. i believe i did more than enough as a friend for her. being here when she needs to lend a ear, giving her support when she's down. if she can find another better friend then let it be. even though it feels hurt and sad, that is the choice that she make and i will respect her.

i'm not even sure she's reading my blog. but nevermind about it i guess. hope that she will understand one day.

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feel so much better this morning after i went to church. today is palm sunday. the celebration here and Kuching is different. they don't have any procession like Kuching does and their palm leaves are different too. will attach the photo for you people to take a look. easter is coming which mean easter holiday is getting nearer. hurray!!!!!!